miss him

"tahun depan kita bakar bakaran lagi yuk" 

"yah kak insyaAllah...-_- hehe abisnya aku banyak banget tugas sekarang :("

"hahhaha yaudah intinya pas kamu kesini aja;)"

"ok deh janjji! :D "

"ku tunggu janji mu :p"

"-__-"

my last conversation with him. My brother who always made me forget all my problems, taught me how to be brave, how to love someone.... and always help people whenever they need it. And now, he's gone for good.

I still remember my word, about I have found another my brother and now, he's become my boyfriend. But.... he's change. And I must accept the fact anyway. He's become, well his behavior is like he doesn't care with me anymore.

I miss him, my brother. Every time I felt lonely he always text me with some his wise sentence. Sometime I laugh because of it. And joking around. He always come every time. Not only when I felt lonely. Every time. In every moment. And make another beautiful moment with him. Well, I must admit that every time he near me, everything become a fairy tale story. Everything seem unreal for me. 

I really miss him, miss him in every point. 

diary II

everything seems different, everything becomes so blue for me. Right now I'm here, but my mind nowhere

I still remember my past, where's my parents still happy. And the most important is, not broken. They're still loved each other. But now ? I don't know. And my friend, Idk what was she thinking but honestly, it's her fault. Why she turned off the phone? and now she mad at me. With reason she had wait for me.

Now, I realize. Everything has change. And must change. Or life will be flat. But guess what? if the effected from change turn out to be something better it's ok! but it turn out to be... painful. I realize I'm still a teenager who will grow up and become an adult. So is it a sin if I came to their problem? is it will be a sin if I help them?

Right now I'm 16. In mean time I must ready to face it all the future. The adult's life which sound so crazy, free and nuts! (what's the different from it anyway?-_-) anyway I just want to you guys that don't blame everyone about their behavior. Because they are they, you are you, me is me, he is he, she is she and so be it!

Right now, I saw many people said you've changed so much. And I was just like, if they weren't change, it would be disaster. Because why? if you're not getting taller, getting old, getting smart, getting stupid, clever, and all the others, what will you be? people must tasted what if it like to be him, her, parents etc.

Scared if someone would mad at you? it's life! people do something bad and good is already a habit for human. Allah made us to be prefect. if you had - then you must be have +. Even your physic is not complete, but I bet you will be the winner!

Like me, I must changed. Change to something good and leave the bad. I planned on wearing veil when I'm married, or Allah gives me clue. And be someone who have good behavior. Someone who can be trust with everyone near me. amin :)

The point is, people's mind are different. And if one of your friend change, don't blame them. Accept their personality if they changed to be someone nice, if the bad one....well you must tell them;) tell them that they're change but in the wrong way. Try it;)  sorry for the long and random chit-chat!;)

All my dreams, hopes, wishes.

hollaaa :) welcome to my diary with smell about my dream, hope, and wish that I have on my mind right now.

Well, how can I put it in, when he asks me what am I had been thinking when ngablu comes, I only thinks he hugs me very tight while saying "I don't wanna loose you". That sweet kind of romance won't come to me anyway so I only dreaming about it. I know dreaming is great~ nice~ and somehow can make me happy. But again, when that dream day's over, must back to the reality well I got so much heart mini attack and realize, I'm still in here. Sitting alone in the middle of my room. I look around me and no one there. I wish he will next to me right now. 

Again, wish comes. After dreaming well I will make a wish to Allah. Usually I pray to Allah about our relationship, about my destiny and for my parents of course. But with honest, I really wishing for my destiny with all of my heart. I really hope that he will be mine. My husband, my everything. 

My dreams, I wanna be the best secretaries in Indonesia. just in Indonesia because, I feel awkward If I said the best in the world. Everyone can do something like become the best in the world because we have our own skill and weakness. But I'm afraid without trying first. Sorry, it's already my habit anyway. 

I have my skill and my weakness. So if you read my list of my dreams....well better you ready for reading like a doctor ;p because why? I have so many dreams, and they are secret;)

save it! write it down but don't let people know what are you up to. Because when they saw it, they will say "you can't do this" but the fact is "you can". 

Like me :) without everyone knows, I have a thousand dreams that I wish it will happen in the short time from now on :) Allah bless you always! :D

Diary

I guess my grandma's hobby is flow down on my blood like writing something with emotion, when I upset I will write down what I feel. well I don't really sure but Blogging is one of my favorite things to do since in elementary school.

so today, I think it's really not to important but I wanna to let it go all the problems, words and thought in my life through this.

I know I'm a selfish girl, and a spoiled girl. But don't ever think I had so much attention from my family. well guess what? My friends are the best thing I've ever had. why? If they're not here in my life, I would feel this world is really flat.

but now? My boyfriend always busy :'( and again I feel lonely:') and he's always saying a sweet words but I don't know if it a really from his heart or just saying to make me feel happy. Really I always pray that Allah will give him so many luck :) but what? he can't taste what it feels like to be free? naughty? and give so much attention to his girlfriend?

I'm not mad, but I only feel sick. Sick and tired hearing all this kind of things. Always says "sorry I'm busy" with a sad emoticon. I know you're always busy but can't you be honest with your parents that you're tired and want to have a great times with friends? well I knew the answer, and simple. "My parents are different from yours"

ok I admit it's true. But again, why he didn't try a single idea from me? I know I'm such a bad girl, always hang out no matter it's rainy or hot. But sometimes we must try first and then if we knew the answer well it'd something awesome :D but again, you will comeback to that sentences again :)

I'm tired and really, I always fell asleep whenever wait your text or call. honestly, I'm tired. and I want to ride on my motorcycle and go to no where. And seeing something new and awesome :)

just for your information, I wrote this things up while crying. I can't hold up this tears. it's painful :')
And again.

Hoping is the only way but seeing the fact, I don't really know what am I must do right now :) forgiving you is  the only way, be patient with your behave is already my habit. But seeing you ignoring me? I (don't know).

happy anniversary for me and you Reza:) many love for you and today I was so happy until I can't say anyword :3

Haru haru (bigbang)+Rainy Mood

have you try to listen one of this song? you must listen to haru haru by bigbang! it's one of my favorite song:') Sorry but I just want to share it to you guys;)

This song have a nice instrumental. Especially in the piano's part. I bet you will fall in love in the first sight when you hear the piano vers. But also it's a great song. Bigbang sang it with emotion and that's why this song looks so great and nice! and it will spoiled your ears. I know almost all of you guys would think korean again and it's boring.

This song is different. Not like the others this song has something that makes your heart warm. Trust me, if you know this song, you will love it. And plus if you opened the youtube don't forget to listen this instrumental with rainy mood. And you will feel like you're in sad movie but it's about someone who you miss. I will give you the link;) make sure to hear it!! <3 p="p">this for the Haru haru -bigbang (Piano vers.)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SEl6kXVZSn4
This for the rainy mood
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYw7eJYadco

first, pause both of them when you want to hear it. Then try to play both of them together in one time. I bet you will love it;) sorry is not my idea anyway and I got this from a comment don't know from who but when I try it well, it works;) give it to someone you love!

Allah bless you;)

Screw up!

sometimes being alone is something that I love the most but getting some attention from people is one of my favorite things! well holla at me! I'm the most annoying girl on earth. I admit it anyway.

People always getting me on the wrong way. I mean, if I closed to someone, they will think ok that girl has deep relationship with that guy. But what? you don't know a thing about me but screw you.

And I lost in battle called bacot in the real life. why? I can't say a word if I really mad. But when it has settle down, I will think and have so many words that I should scream out loud to it. I guess I really dumb. as a person. I wish people understand my feeling. And not only see me then judge me. Again, see me and judge me. Well for you who judge me but only know me from outside of me :
first, don't ever think you're the greatest human in the whole world. There's a God or Allah if you're muslim.
the second one, oh please don't make any bad rumor about me. Ask me first why then you may allow to talk about me as you want. but don't be too spicy.
I think it's enough. I just want to scream. mad but I don't know to whom I should do:\

Any way today was... I don't know how to say it anyway-_-"

Dunia Luar

sejak kecil gue emang banyak masalah sama sekolah. Tapi tidak sestres yang terjadi sekarang.

There's so many teachers who have two face. I really shocked and I admit I'm wrong. Why I must hug him and I regret everything that happened on September.

I regret it. But it is not all my fault. She, my ex teacher were let me hug him. Not mad at me and not trying to give us an order to move our sit. So think with logic, I'm still teen and she was already an adult.

and back to the subject,

guess I really a dumb girl who want to do the right thing for her. The way I think is really...call me stupid.

Outside world is really annoying. There's so many people wearing masks. and crap I enter the trap. I believe her. But she makes me hurt. She talked about me to her friends and one school now what I've done. Chitchat gossip are forbidden in Islam
but boom she break the rules. well I've read one about this. And I've tried not talk about people and again this behaviour already stuck on my mind.

I must not easly give someone a trust From now on, I must grow up with myself. Handle everything with all I have. And believe to Allah that Allah will always bless me, protect me, and makes me happy whenever I felt down:) thanks Allah for everything:)

Random Feelings (Part 1)

I don't know why but this day, I really love seeing or hearing my phone vibrating or something sign there's a text message come :3 but of course I'm very happy when I saw the text was from my bf :')

but... as the time goes by, I really felt we more farther than usual. I mean, there is so many wall between us. We can't text-ing each other often, otp and... meeting each other. I hate waiting a message, and yeah speak the truth I HATE if you're not replay my text. yap I hate it so much. I don't why esp. when I've sent you more than twice.

When I'm gonna check my phone, I wish there will be a text from you but? krik krik-_- there's no text :) only pain I got when I saw it. And I don't like when you asked "why" even though you already know the answer.

I know you're not a sensitive person but can you be that kind of person without I'm wishing it? I guess no :) This emoticon, not represent my true feeling. My true feeling is ":(" or may be worst like ":'(" why? I'm not  kind of person who like to make other people think "is she alright?" so I always wearing this mask. Even though he always knew that I'm not alright at all.

Am I have to suffer waiting his message? I don't know but when he sent me one message it makes me happy somehow. I miss him more than words ;') but is he miss me?

Now, right now I think he's busy. I feel like a young little girl who wants candy but his father still works and the lil' kid must save her own feeling. When her mother ask "whats wrong dear?" the girl answer " Nothing is wrong mom :)".

Again, said "ok" but wearing a mask. I really want to take off this mask and be my self! I want to be more honest with my self but it difficult :'

I don't know what should I wrote again. I don't want make any fight for me and him. I just wanna have a good nice relationship.

My wish for this week, Allah, please look after him :') because I'm still his "girlfriend" not his "wife" :) make his parents let him go wherever he wants. Let his parents know that he just a boy who wants to taste what is world is. Amin :)

Hampir....:')

Hampir setahun kepergian lo. Indahnya dunia hampir ga bisa gue rasain, gue pandangi dan gue nikmatiin karena lo udah pergi. Kesannya emang gue egois banget. Tapi apa daya gue tetep masih mau lo ada di sini, ketemu gue, terus gue ngeliat lo nikah sama perempuan yang lo cintai. Tapi Allah udah manggil lo dan lo pergi secara damai. Gue ga tau harus gimana lagi.

Gue sampe cerita sama racap gue tentang ini. Sholat pun tetep ada rasa ganjal di hati. Sumpah sampai cape hati ngomong tentang ini terus. Kebahagian ke gue emang banyak yang datang, tapi gue lebih bahagia kalo waktu itu gue denger lo sembuh terus pulang.

Masih inget kok pas berita kepergian lo disampaikan ke gue sama papa :'') Pas hujan, di mobil lagi dengerin lagu "Slippin' Away" - Aziatix. Tiba tiba bokap bilang gini (maaf ya rada rada lupa)

Bokap:"dev dev"
gue: " iya pa whatsup?"

b:"devi udah tau kan kalo kakak kamu sakit parah?"
g:"tau kok emang kenapa pa?"

b:"owh gini, kalo misalnya kakak kamu pergi, kamu bakal gimana?"
g:"......" "haha ga lucu banget pa pertanyaannya"

b:"papa lagi serius. gimana perasaan devi?"
g:"ahahha sedih lah. tapi mau diapain lagi kalo udah dipanggil?" /netes/

b:"beneran? ikhlas nih?"
g:"iyaaaaaaaaaaa kenapa sih paa? galucu banget tau ga"

b:"kakak kamu tadi meninggal jam 11an siang. Dia meninggalnya damai"
g:"ha papa boong banget. ga lucu sama sekali enggak" /mulai nangis/

bokap gue langsung diem. Semua ga ada yang bisa berkata satu pun kata. Bahkan dengan perasaan gue yang masih GA PERCAYA, gue langsung tanya nyokap gue begitu gue nyampe di rumah.

g:"ma ma emang kakak meninggal? masa kata papa iya. kan ga lucu banget kan?"
m:"dev, dia beneran meninggal."

deg. disini gue langsung ga tau harus ngapain lagi. udah bingung. Gue seharian ga keluar dari kamar, sumpah demi Allah gue masih ga percaya kakak udah pergi.

Bisa dibilang kejiwaan gue pas ini bener bener tergoncang. Bener bener butuh psikiater.
Bisa dibilang, gue gila sesaat. Gue ga bisa berhenti nangis, gue bener bener kaya kehilangan ortu gue sendiri.

Kakak gue, udah bener bener gue anggep kakak kandung walaupun dia sebenernya bukan. Dia cuma kakak sepupu gue.

15 tahun selalu disambut dengan senyumnya kalo gue go to my hometown, sekarang? ga ada :) sakit? banget.
Masih inget banget permintaan terakhirnya dia yang ga bisa gue penuhin sekarang.

/flashback
k:"dep dep, lebaran nanti pulang yaa. kita main petasan lagi ok?"
g:"pasti deeh tapi Insya Allah ya kak kalo aku pulang hehe"
k:"yah emang kenapa ga pulang dev? lebarang sepi ga ada kamu"
g:"hahaha bisa aja nih :p iyaa nanti aku liat jadwal dulu ok?"
k:"sip aku tunggu"

dan sekarang? :) cuma bisa senyum. banyak hikmah nya semenjak kepergiannya dia. I love you brother:)

Fin

SatNight

This is the first of my life and yap no regrets at all :'D \(//∇//)\

I mean, finally I had a chance to be with him when SatNight comes! I've already hangout with my friends a lot when it comes but with him? this is my first time:) I really dont know how to spell it out, tell my best friend about this and how I hide my happy-face?:3

Because what? because I can't stop to smile and feel happy whenever I feel down. Alhamdulillah and thanks to Allah for this:') without Allah, I'm nothing.^^

although, back then me and my friend Mitha get tired waiting for him because.. he's late and we're bored to death waiting for him.

And again, get kissed again. I'm not sad this time but I really happy about it:) Dont get me wrong about this please for everyone who read this:) I just shared my thought on this blog;)

everyone is gonna have a chance. Just dont give up ;) Allah always do the best for you! and the 2nd plan always much beautiful and deeply than the first one3: good night!!:D

ade adean - kaka kakaan

jujur,
sebenernya gue baru ngerti istilah kedua yang dijadiin judul itu pas masuk smk, dimana anak anak gahul or badayyy or whatever lah ngejadiin temen jadi adeadean/kakakakaan.

tapi, kalo sesama jenis sih bisa maklumin ya. Nah kalo lain jenis? aw aw hati hati. Masalahnya dari pengalaman gue dan juga dari survei gue, kebanyakan cewe jadi adeadean.

kenapa?

soalnya kakakakaan mereka itu cowo dan....biasanya si cowo itu udah punya cewe. Itusih yang nyesek. Tapi toh jadi ade adean lebih nyenengin lho;) wk-_- tapi nyesek bgt pas ngeliat kaka kakaannya itu jalan ama pacarnya. Biasa korban itu cewe. Yap a girl. well nantinya kalo mereka sakit hati begitu tau kaka kakaannya(cowo) itu punya pacar...well ouch. hurts so much. emotionless. cant think right. terus ya kaka kakaannya dikatain "php" deh:\

gue pernah baca tweet ttg php dan rada lupa sih, tapi intinya begini "gabakal ada php kalo lo ga berharap banget" gitulah intinya abis gue lupa tweetnya-__-v u,u

seharusnya, kalo ngaku sebagai ade adeannya dia seneng dong kalo kakaknya seneng. Terutama kalo kakaknya dapet pacar, pasti ngucapin congrat, etc yang penting ikutan senang. ga galau di tl. ga ngatai dia php.

Soalnya gue ngalamin juga:) dan nyeseknya dia juga ikut fall for him
:') nyesek. jelas~ tapi temen gue selalu bilang "yang penting lo pacarnya". at least itu kata kata udah bikin gue positif thinking terus:))

well I think is enough! maaf kalo ada salah kata;) ✌✌✌♥♥♥

wake up

gue bukan anak kecil lagi. At least ini pelajaran buat hari ini. Banyak yang bilang sifat gue egois bgt. Harus gue akuin iya.

despite of that, gue harus bilang ke diri gue kalo "gue itu masih pacarnya". kenapa? Karena dia pergi sama ortunya terus apa apa masih minta sm ortunya. Dan gue ga boleh egois minta dia cepet pulang:'( even it hurts so much. Deep inside in my heart, I wish that he will come back soon.

mulai holiday ini, gue harus bannyak berubah. Mulai yang dulu berantem terus sama adek, sekarang harus enggak-_- mulai harus bersabar, ga banyak smsin dia kalo ga dibales ber jam jam:) bakal nyesek sih tapi ga apapa lah toh dia bakal have fun:D

wake up from my childish behavior. I know I can:)

tadi...

tadi...
gue berusaha nahan nangis. mata rasanya panas banget. tetep aja emang bukan salah "dia" tapi salah gue. Kenapa gue harus liat smsnya? tau gini gue ga bakal liat sms dia lagi.

tadi...
dikelas ngomongin gingsul. Langsung aja gue inget si L-_- kan inget doang masa ga boleh? udah berapa kali mau nangis gara gara ini. udah dijelasin tapi tetep ga mau denger. nyesek.

tadi...
seneng banget bisa berpergian sama "dia" terutama dipeluk. Itu bener bener wow. Maksud gue, gue udah lama ga dipeluk gara gara alasan "puasa"-_-v wkwkwk tapi itu sebenernya yang bikin gue seneng:) bisa ga marah sama dia .

tadi...
sempet nyesek. mau nangis. ga bisa marah. makin sayaang\(//∇//)\

feel guilty

everyone don't want to feel that too right? guilty. To be honest, I hate being guilty but because of that "gate teeth" I can't easily remove this feeling.

why? because he changes for me, everytime and everywhere he chooses to follow me:( I've told him everyday but he won't listen to me and now?

I know he's only kidding but his jokes is not funny at all. Not make me laugh:(

well I hope "gate teeth" really only kidding amin!!:(

my friends ♪(*^^)o∀*∀o(^^*)♪

hollaaaa^^/
today I will tell you a story about my friends;) they're kiki and dhea! :D I love both of them just like my lil sis \(//∇//)\ but because of it, they call me 'kakak tua'-_- ok I'm not old!! I'm still young ;___; and still innocent^^v

ok Dhea is really a nice girl;) but sometimes she suddenly go nuts and then sing something but it works. Success makes me laugh. Even though I must admit the fact that she has an innocent face:( but of course me too-_-v wkwk

and now kiki._. She is, innocent but.....ok enough for her. the point is, she's nice and friendly:) and Oh!!she also smart at....'ngablu'-_- I dont even know what is ngablu??:( no one want to tell me about it. :((
ok enough-_-
so from your right hand is Dhea and next to her is Kiki :) without them, I think my life at school will be flat as hell ^^v

so here's the picture about them ;)

Him:"(

I'm already 16 years old so I have to know what is right and what is wrong. People always said that my face doesn't look like an teenager face :"( is my face really look so innocent? :( I bet yes-_-v wkwkwk

Well gue emang harus ngehadapin segalanya. Siap segalanya. kecuali nikah sih.__.v kalo itu umur 23 keatas lah~ wkwk ok to the point. To be honest, I want to be a lady, not a young girl anymore. But I'm to selfish and that's make me still look like a young kid :"( and have an innocent face-_-v wkwk
Dan gue harus belajar mencintai orang. Ini yang susah. Maksud gue susah, gue itu kadang ga bisa ngatur emosi pas dia bikin gue kesel :( Honest, right now I'm so upset, and really if I could I punch his face right now. But I can't :(
because I love him so I can't hurt him. Although he the one who always hurts me :'( I barely can't stand this. I got sick every time because I always think about him. But what I get?
I just get more hurt, more sick, ill. etc.

today. I call him twice but he didn't answer it. I cried for two hours (I think more than that). I really wish him many lucks. For sake of Allah if I could I want to join the pain with him. If possible I want that illness come to me and vanish from his body.

I wish... ok I will pray everyday. I will be more like muslim looks like. The point is Reza can go to school tomorrow! for sake of Allah I really miss him:'( one day without him, it's really killing me inside. Maybe I could get sick because of this. Please Allah please listen to my wishes. I just one You to grant this one. Just this one please Allah:'((  Amin. :"(

My wish for you is keep health, no pain, and keep loving me:') amin!

it's me!!!

hollaa guys!! ok this time I will show you my selca;) I'm not a beautiful girl but I'm just an ordinary girl with cute face and innocent \(//∇//)\ I guess I will talk a lot about me.

Well I born at Pacitan, my father's hometown Indonesia at 14 March 1996 !;)
I'm a shy girl and always do something stupid haha. But I'm still innocent but believe me there's not much people believe it. What have I done?! Σ（ﾟдﾟlll）(Ｔ＿Ｔ)

I live in Jakarta and one house with mu grandma who I used to call her with Oma. She's nice lady but she is always on time and because of that, I have already become her victim. :(

ohyeah! beside of that, I have one lil bro . His name is Axel. Born at Jakarta and had a cute cheeks,!>.<

I have twitter, fb and tumblr!;) I will share it to you but if you wanna know my msn, you must first be my good friend and then I will add you;) thank you for your attention what is yours?;)

Gombalan

hm, sering mikir deh kalo cowo ada yang bilang something yang bisa bikin cewe nge fly itu...serius atau cuma gombalan?

kenapa gue mikir gitu?

karena emang faktanya banyak banget cowo yang gombalin cewenya. Sampai sampai si itu cewe terpengaruh eeh pas putus baru tau kalo cowo nya cuma jago gombal-_- /jangan sampe gue salah satunya/

contoh simpel aja deh, kaya "aku sayang banget sama kamu. tanpa mu aku tidak ada apa apa" ok ini gombalan yang well lumayan lah bisa buat cewe melting. Bukan cuma melting doang, bahkan yang tadinya itu cewe mau mutusin cowonya malah gajadi gara gara si itu cowo bilang itu ke cewenya.

sebenernya gue juga ga begitu ngerti sih apa yang mau gue bilang.Tapi seru juga kalo dipikir-pikir ngebahas gombalan. salah satunya gombalan yang dibuat sama temen gue yaituu
"apa perbedaannya roti sama kamu?"
jawabannya~>
"kalo roti buat dimakan, kalo kamu buat disayang" :'3 /eaaaa
itu gombalan emang keliatannya sih biasa aja. Tapi coba deh kalo itu cewe/cowo emang sayang banget sama pasangannya masing masing terus mereka ngegombalin ini. Pasti pada melting atau ga salting.

Yang paling ga enak itu pas si cewe jadi korban gombalan. Soalnya, rata rata emang cewe anggep gombalan itu serius. Apalagi kalo misalnya digombalin sama cowo yang ditaksir, pasti kita berkata "why not?"

Time to realize aja tentang sikap cowo. Kalo emang dia sayang sama lo, pasti deh jarang ngegombalin. Tapi kalo sering....apalagi ke cewe lain juga dengan alasan "cuma bercanda" itu wajib kudu harus dicurigain. Bukannya mau bikin nethink, tapi cuma ngasih fakta doang kok;)

When I look at you

Dear you, yap my love.
May be in my case you are my first love. Because this is my first time that I felt something that makes my heart can't stop beating normally. I hate to say this when I first saw you, I don't like you at all. But when we began to text-ing each other, switch our opinion and often hang out together were make me fall in love with you.

So, when I look at you....
I can't stop thinking about what must I do. Or you could say that I don't want you to see my ridiculous behavior. And because of it, I do it. I do the most ridiculous behavior but you still want to be my friend. At first I treat you as my brother. But as time goes by, I treat you like...someone that I love. May be since you and I were took lulu back home. You give me a scene that really amaze me.

I still remember when you first text me and said you only do that just for fun. But for me, it's a really special text for me :)

Time gone so soon, and I become more deep fall in love with you. At first I though you're love her. So all I can do is gave up. And let him go. And the truth is, I'm so in pain :'( almost every night I cried and can't stop thinking about I must think you are my brother. And wow it's really work! thanks Allah :')

I still remember all of it. The point is the memories from before I become yours :) Really can't describe with words about what have I through to get you, up and down to catch your attention, and I'm not gonna forgot Allah has bless me so I could stand until this long :') it's really hard journey to have you. But now? I really happy :)

When I look at you, you are a cute boy. I'm not fall in love with a guy who has a handsome face but a cold heart. I fall in love with an ordinary guy but has a handsome heart:) and warm also!

ok I think it's enough for me :) tell yours! don't be shy;)

My daily activities

well holla guys! how are you? well this time I will tell you about my daily activities because yesterday Ms. Endang mention about it so why not? ok continue

After I wake up, I used to collect my soul first (re: still not get up from bed). But it often happen when I must go to school like Monday, Tuesday etc. Next I take a shower and it takes 5minutes. don't call me duck please just because of this-_- sucks huh? well my family said that I'm a duck because I took shower so quick. Idc~ after this, I have a breakfast with egg or may be sometime with fried rice. My mom who made it not me. expecting me to cook is totally a worst or may be more than worst idea ever. I don't like cooking. Because there's so many reason for it and I'm not gonna tell it :p (who wanna know anyway). But I love to eat :9 that's me-_-v hehe ok let us continue...

Breakfast done it's time to go to school. I love being at school but I'm too lazy to say HI with lessons, teachers and the people who I dislike. There's so many of it so I often made a wish for go home more earlier. At school I sit next to my bf<3 his name's Reza. And they are Kiki and Dhea my closed friends. They're sit behind me. School life would be so boring if we don't have enemy. And lucky me. I have it grr-_- 

ohyeah after school's over, Kiki, Dhea, Me, Reza and Fajri usually go to somewhere the point is that place was fun! sometime we went to Dhea's house and taman langsat. I really happy when we go out and ride the motorcycle. 

time to go home. it's really painful because I don't like just stay at home and do nothing. I mean ok I have something fun to do but I easily get boring. After I arrive at home, I straight go to bathroom and take a shower and finally I have a nice deep sleep until morning say hi to me again. haha that's my story what is yours?:)