KODE = PEKA PLEASE

Holla~

OK gue sampe sekarang bingung haruskan cowo kita kodein dulu baru PEKA? kita yang jadi cewe juga cape sih bikin dia peka terus tapi apa? hasilnya juga gitu. Kadang harus DICEPLOSIN. Nah yang parah ini nih. Sampai terkadang kita mikir kan, "dia sayang ga sih sama gue?"

Jujur ini terjadi sama gue, heran beribu keheranan gue anaknya gengsi berat. Males yang namanya kode kodein kalo pas pacaran. Biar dia sadar kalo emang sayang ya kenapa ga langsung nyamperin atau bisa dibilang kaya bisa baca pikiran kita maunya kaya gimana.

Jangan muna, semua cewe pasti kan pingin diperlakuin special. Walaupun cowo lo cueknya ngalahin patung-_- paling kesel sih gini, gue males kode kodeinnya.
Didalam hati kita sadar ga sadar pasti pingin di perhatiin walaupun dikit. At least pingin di anggap ada sama doi. Again, kode lagi kode lagi.

so, kita boleh ngasih kode, tapi jangan kebanyakan dan jangan lebay banget. Cukup kodein satu atau ga tiga kali. Kalo dianya ga sadar juga dan lo keburu geregetan, mending lo langsung ceplosin didepan dia. Jangan via sms/bbm. Ga bakal ngefek kalo lo ceplas ceplos di hp. Face to face is the best. Because no one can't hide their true feeling. Dan, bukan nyeplosin lo pinginnya gimana. Tapi lo ceplosin kaya "lo belajar peka ya, jujur gue cape sih ngebuat lo peka. Hargai gue ya"
Kedengarannya galak. Tapi gapapa demi kebaikan lo nya. Kalo emang beneran sayang sama lo, dia pasti langsung bangkit dan berusaha minta maaf. Not only sit there and say "maaf yang" HALAAAH basi.

Kalo dua bener bener ga gerak selama 1 hari/2 hari, hati hati. Kemungkinan lo cuma dijadiin lampiasan napsu sesaat. Dia emang bilang sama lo "Sayang kok" udah gitu doang? Sayang itu pake usaha guys. Kalo cuma ngomong gitu doang anak tk pun bisa. Karena itu kata kata ga mengandung satupun kalimat yang bisa yakinin. Ya kalo yang buat sayang sama doi sih cukup denger kata "sayang" udah fly, seneng, klepek klepek.

Dan gue saranin, mending udahan sampai disitu. Minimal break kalo ga mau putus. Bilang ke dia ubah sikapnya. Jangan harus apa apa di kodein. Jangan lupa juga berdoa sama beribadah kepada Allah buat yang lebih baik. Karena tanpanya, semua rencana kita bisa gagal 99%.

Don't complain without trying, everything's gonna be alright. If you had try it then you allow to complain and burst your tears ;) best of luck for you girls!

Missing Me&You

we have built so many memories that contain pain, fun, love, miss, cry, mad, angry, shy, and the others emotion that makes us strong, weak, sad, happy:)

I wish we can continue this relationship without any fighting, or may be without sadness. But what? am I have to be patient all of time. I must admit that I'm a coward. I'm too scared to face the truth. I'm scared to confess what had my heart feel. I'm not lie. But it's hurts. Every times I felt hurt, all I can do is keep silent.

Stupid? I think. My friend keep telling me that I should tell him the truth, I must tell him what I feel. But I'm too scared. Too scared until I made a clumsy reaction. I wish, you, Reza, read this. 

I feel like an idiot when you're not replay my text message. I feel so stupid.

But hell again, I must wake up. how many times do I must get up? 

I really almost can't stand this anymore. You're telling me the lie. And I'm telling you the truth. Guess what? I love you:") If I lied I probably only using you and we already broke up long time ago. 

But I'm serious, serious about this. I've try to be the best but comeback to the reality, I'm still a human. Allah made me not perfect. You either. 

I still don't get it why you treat me like this. And like this morning. I wish I could receive a morning text from you. Pointless. 

Honestly, I'm missing you. Missing your warm, kind personality. Now I know you're like this. But too in love with you makes me don't wanna give up. Even you're mean as step-mother I'll love you. 

But to be honest too I'm missing the old me. Before "he" gone :') 

For you readers, try to listen to this song "missing me - Rj Helton" this is an old song but it's really telling the fact about those lovey dovey lover:" 

wanna get over it soon

gue tau kalo gue itu emang penyakitan. Dan gue tau kenapa bokap nyokap nyembunyiin. Suatu saat nanti, badan gue tiba tiba bakal turun drastis beratnya. Kalo gue sekuat bokap ya gue pasti bisa bertahan hidup. Kalo engga...

I dnt know either I should tell my boyfriend or not, because I'm too scared to leave by him :'( I'm scared too face the truth too. So right now, all I wanna do is get over it. I wanna like them, no pain, can play and eat what ever it likes as long it's health, party till drop and keep being with someone they love.

those romantic story is makes  me think twice. Is it real? or just me who hoping it will be come true. Right now I'm dizzy just by thinking the future. I don't even know what am I try to say in this blog.

The truth is, I feel sad. Sad because he never understands what I felt. Sad because I must face the truth in the mean time. Sad because .... always get sick whenever I ate. That's, just make me think am I gonna life till next year? am I still gonna see him? am I still gonna pray? am I gonna still breathing?I don't know what will happen, no one know what will happen in the future.

I only hope, hope for the best and wish, wish something wonderful will really happen in my life. Now, Later or In the future :)