You guys who love to read a manga must be know a "love button" manga right? It's about a cute girl called niina or her name's nina kasuga who has a relationship with eito kasuga. And their journey of love is not easy as a pie. There are so many problem, about keito almost move away to another city and must say good bye to niina. Not say good bye, but they must have a long distance relationship. But after trying hard and keep praying, everything comes back to normal and Eito canceled to move out to his grandpa's house.
So what my point is, I want to share my feeling about it. My love-life is almost like love button manga. But the different is Eito understand that what Niina wants but mine is... not understanding at all. He thinks everything gonna be all right as long as he believe me. But I need more attention from him. Is that too much to ask? I just ask his attention not more. I feel so lonely. I barely can't stand it.
It feels like I'm not in relationship with him and I don't belong in his life. Am I the one who felt this? Am I to selfish for saying all those thing? It's not mean. why I write like this? because my feeling is feel lonely. I know he busy for his future. Is he really care for me? Is he really love me? Is he really want me?
Who can answer that?
I wonder when will I get a perfect life? It wont happen to me anyway about having a love-life like a princess's life. And a perfect life just happen on book, imagination, movie and hope.
too much hoping just make yourself killed. Or maybe poisoned. Well I'm trying my best to live my life with happiness. Because happiness shows up if we trying hard to make it happen :) dont forget always pray!;)
