Diary

I guess my grandma's hobby is flow down on my blood like writing something with emotion, when I upset I will write down what I feel. well I don't really sure but Blogging is one of my favorite things to do since in elementary school.

so today, I think it's really not to important but I wanna to let it go all the problems, words and thought in my life through this.

I know I'm a selfish girl, and a spoiled girl. But don't ever think I had so much attention from my family. well guess what? My friends are the best thing I've ever had. why? If they're not here in my life, I would feel this world is really flat.

but now? My boyfriend always busy :'( and again I feel lonely:') and he's always saying a sweet words but I don't know if it a really from his heart or just saying to make me feel happy. Really I always pray that Allah will give him so many luck :) but what? he can't taste what it feels like to be free? naughty? and give so much attention to his girlfriend?

I'm not mad, but I only feel sick. Sick and tired hearing all this kind of things. Always says "sorry I'm busy" with a sad emoticon. I know you're always busy but can't you be honest with your parents that you're tired and want to have a great times with friends? well I knew the answer, and simple. "My parents are different from yours"

ok I admit it's true. But again, why he didn't try a single idea from me? I know I'm such a bad girl, always hang out no matter it's rainy or hot. But sometimes we must try first and then if we knew the answer well it'd something awesome :D but again, you will comeback to that sentences again :)

I'm tired and really, I always fell asleep whenever wait your text or call. honestly, I'm tired. and I want to ride on my motorcycle and go to no where. And seeing something new and awesome :)

just for your information, I wrote this things up while crying. I can't hold up this tears. it's painful :')
And again.

Hoping is the only way but seeing the fact, I don't really know what am I must do right now :) forgiving you is  the only way, be patient with your behave is already my habit. But seeing you ignoring me? I (don't know).

happy anniversary for me and you Reza:) many love for you and today I was so happy until I can't say anyword :3

Haru haru (bigbang)+Rainy Mood

have you try to listen one of this song? you must listen to haru haru by bigbang! it's one of my favorite song:') Sorry but I just want to share it to you guys;)

This song have a nice instrumental. Especially in the piano's part. I bet you will fall in love in the first sight when you hear the piano vers. But also it's a great song. Bigbang sang it with emotion and that's why this song looks so great and nice! and it will spoiled your ears. I know almost all of you guys would think korean again and it's boring.

This song is different. Not like the others this song has something that makes your heart warm. Trust me, if you know this song, you will love it. And plus if you opened the youtube don't forget to listen this instrumental with rainy mood. And you will feel like you're in sad movie but it's about someone who you miss. I will give you the link;) make sure to hear it!! <3 p="p">this for the Haru haru -bigbang (Piano vers.)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SEl6kXVZSn4
This for the rainy mood
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYw7eJYadco

first, pause both of them when you want to hear it. Then try to play both of them together in one time. I bet you will love it;) sorry is not my idea anyway and I got this from a comment don't know from who but when I try it well, it works;) give it to someone you love!

Allah bless you;)

Screw up!

sometimes being alone is something that I love the most but getting some attention from people is one of my favorite things! well holla at me! I'm the most annoying girl on earth. I admit it anyway.

People always getting me on the wrong way. I mean, if I closed to someone, they will think ok that girl has deep relationship with that guy. But what? you don't know a thing about me but screw you.

And I lost in battle called bacot in the real life. why? I can't say a word if I really mad. But when it has settle down, I will think and have so many words that I should scream out loud to it. I guess I really dumb. as a person. I wish people understand my feeling. And not only see me then judge me. Again, see me and judge me. Well for you who judge me but only know me from outside of me :
first, don't ever think you're the greatest human in the whole world. There's a God or Allah if you're muslim.
the second one, oh please don't make any bad rumor about me. Ask me first why then you may allow to talk about me as you want. but don't be too spicy.
I think it's enough. I just want to scream. mad but I don't know to whom I should do:\

Any way today was... I don't know how to say it anyway-_-"