Diary

I guess my grandma's hobby is flow down on my blood like writing something with emotion, when I upset I will write down what I feel. well I don't really sure but Blogging is one of my favorite things to do since in elementary school.

so today, I think it's really not to important but I wanna to let it go all the problems, words and thought in my life through this.

I know I'm a selfish girl, and a spoiled girl. But don't ever think I had so much attention from my family. well guess what? My friends are the best thing I've ever had. why? If they're not here in my life, I would feel this world is really flat.

but now? My boyfriend always busy :'( and again I feel lonely:') and he's always saying a sweet words but I don't know if it a really from his heart or just saying to make me feel happy. Really I always pray that Allah will give him so many luck :) but what? he can't taste what it feels like to be free? naughty? and give so much attention to his girlfriend?

I'm not mad, but I only feel sick. Sick and tired hearing all this kind of things. Always says "sorry I'm busy" with a sad emoticon. I know you're always busy but can't you be honest with your parents that you're tired and want to have a great times with friends? well I knew the answer, and simple. "My parents are different from yours"

ok I admit it's true. But again, why he didn't try a single idea from me? I know I'm such a bad girl, always hang out no matter it's rainy or hot. But sometimes we must try first and then if we knew the answer well it'd something awesome :D but again, you will comeback to that sentences again :)

I'm tired and really, I always fell asleep whenever wait your text or call. honestly, I'm tired. and I want to ride on my motorcycle and go to no where. And seeing something new and awesome :)

just for your information, I wrote this things up while crying. I can't hold up this tears. it's painful :')
And again.

Hoping is the only way but seeing the fact, I don't really know what am I must do right now :) forgiving you is  the only way, be patient with your behave is already my habit. But seeing you ignoring me? I (don't know).